Why urban hobosexuality is quite a thing in India now (or at least becoming one)
Hobosexuality refers to a pattern where someone enters a romantic relationship primarily for housing or financial support, often under the guise of a deep emotional connection.
I am really sorry …what you must have gone through is one of the darkest times in any humans life.
One of my friend had similar story. He went into very heavy medication, drugs, Smoking, Panic Attacks, Use to shout at his parents ..I even tried to host him and take him on few treks to make him feel better with nature.
Long story short…He is doing well now. Joined work out sessions, Some therapy and all .
And putting pieces together now.
Hope you find or better already found peace in your life now. Ofcourse it is hard to forget but there is lot to look forward too in life.
So focus on ahead and continue to live life at its fullest .
I am better now but still that memory lingers sometimes.
I and my wife stayed together because of our daughter but my wife loves her sisters husband more than me or my kid.
Her grand mom did the same thing she did and her mental state changed in those days when she was just 15 years old and when her sister got married at age 16 immediately.
Now she thinks she, her sister, husband, father and grand mom are the only ones who are family and not me, our kid or my parents.
Whole village and all relatives threw them out and shunned them.
Now I have to bear all those consequences now.
My wife isn’t in a position to listen to me now but my kid is crying and saying that she needs both of us.
So we have to compromise and stay there and me have to face her cruel words sometimes.
She sometimes says that sisters husband has become a Raja and I have to drive an autoriksha.
Bro, maybe you should speak to someone who can councel you on better understanding whether it is good or bad idea to stay in such situation as yours and even for your young child.
Like I said my friend was going through similar life and he was causing himself more damage over the years.
for him councelling helped a lot too beside personal will to change his life.
some members also offered you to talk to them incase you need someone to talk too.
So continue to be strong bro.
Sorry for what you went through but please give us a trigger warning before sharing such personal and traumatic stuff. And post it in a spoiler so people can choose to read it.
This history with your wife keeps getting darker and has taken an immense toll on you. Even now, she doesn’t let you do anything (from what you shared earlier), such as gaming, where you even have to hide that. She has also beaten you. I hope you stay strong. But do seek a support system for your own strength.
Really sorry to hear that, I also agree with solo that your current situation doesn’t sound to be sustainable. I can understand the lengths parents go to for their children but I don’t think being together is worth sacrificing your mental health and even your life. Mental health is just as important as physical heath. Please seek therapy and counseling and maybe consider a second marriage so your daughter can have a caring mother and someone who can support you. I hope you will get better soon.
My friend said she listens to him and his thoughts and even got attracted to her.
(But that aside.) Sometimes we just want someone to listen to us. It is not always Women who need emotional support. Men too seek but they are very quiet about it and this builds up into something very damaging and can even cause to do something harmful to oneself or others.
Personally I suggest easy and cheap way and most beautiful way that I personally found is best to cope lot of issues in life is to get involved in sports…any sports ( even if you are very bad at it) does not matter. You just have to show up every day that will help mentally a lot.
However facing the truth is also important in life . If something bad is going on in your life you cannot keep escaping it. You have to find solution yourself.
Nothing in today is more important that one’s peace of mind.
I could recall an incident..Few yrs ago while doing a roadside grocery shopping I encountered a mid 50s couple where the woman was totally dominating her husband. Yelling and disrespecting him in public while shopping. She has zero respect for the poor man and we could see it on his face what he might be going through at his home.
She was like you dont know how to shop, you didn’t carry the bags, how slow slow are you moving, you don’t understand anything. And the witch looks she was giving to him was like some Mahesh bhatts villainous woman. Nobody dared to that woman. everyone was filling pity to her husband.
I can only imagine what you’d have gone through to take that step. I was away from just that one step.
Even if there was no promiscuous behaviour, the other behaviour exhibited by women mostly, wrt their family even after marriage is troubling.
If the spouse doesn’t care for the child, I’d urge you to be strong and seek to raise your daughter alone and away for such bad influence.
My friend got married and the next thing I hear from him is the girl is having an affair with her brother-in-law. A lot of trouble later, the divorce was finalised last year.
Do not be worried about talking to people about your issues. I realised this very late. If you have a friend or family who you feel comfortable talking to, please talk to them. Spend time with your daughter. Do the things you both love to do. Before you realise, these will all be memories after you help her grow into a confident person.
I kept my mind at peace by reading and taking walks. I’d be wide awake at nights after taking my antidepressants and sleeping pills which were prescribed by the doctor. Some health issues later, I decided to just accept the cards I’ve been dealt and do what I can. The kids make it complicated. But, we can do it. No matter how bad it seems to be.