Now, I can somewhat understand the agony of the family members of covid patients. Despite having a ICU bed in the absolute best hospital, the absolute best doctors in Kolkata, I'm fearing for a friend's life.
How it must feel when a family member is gasping for breath and no bed is available anywhere.
It's so much easier being a doctor, compared to a patient's friend and family member.
Few minutes ago, I was sitting beside his bed and asked him he needs something ( the guy is not fully conscious, but under minimal fentanyl sedation) since he's intubated and can't talk, wrote in the clipboard with lot of effort "ne tvoje chyba blbě"....meaning it is not your fault dumbass...and I locked myself in the washroom and cried for forgiveness..IT IS ALL MY FAULT
