I too have stopped believing in the existance of (any) god. But there is an interesting duality I see in myself which I'd like to share here.
When I was a kid I used to keep fasts, believed lord krishna would protect me when dad went to a tour leaving me and mom alone in a newly constructed house. By the time I was outta college I had read and discussed a lot about religion. I slowly stopped believing in god. I consider myself an atheist now. I do not go to a temple on my own but I don't shy away from it if i'm with family or friends and they want to visit a temple.
The interesting thing is, whenever I have to enter a temple, I fold my hands and bow my head with FULL faith and not just as a compulsion. Another instance, at last year's Diwali puja it was me and mom who sang the prayers for the family. And I did it with all my heart.
Well I guess I'll have to live with this duality. I can believe whatever I feel right but I also respect other people's faith. And that's the bottom line : live and let live
Kudos to SharekhaN for starting this very interesting topic.
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For those who are interested in atheism, here are some recommendations :
- BBC - Jonathan Millers A rough history of disbelief
- BBC - The Atheism Tapes
- all the books, articles and videos by Richard Dawkins and Sam Harris
- Bertrand Russell - Why I am Not a Christian
- Carl Sagan - The Demon Haunted World - Science As A Candle In The Dark
- Julia Sweeney - Letting go of God
- BBC - Charles Darwin and the Tree of Life (2009)
use google to search and download them as torrents. Most of them are available on youtube as well.