How does Mr. PM sleep at night? How does the finance minister, biggies at ICMR look into the eyes of their kids?
I had a hard time talking to my kid eye to eye after a 34 year old mother of three ( the middle one is my kid's age, the youngest just 2) succumbed under my care @ Spain. Lord knows, I did my best for her...didn't wean off ventilation, she was on VCV, did the ECHO myself the evening before and there was no RWMA, her left ventricular function was perfectly fine.
I crashed out in the doctor's lounge around 2 in the morning, she had back to back cardiac arrests around 3:45, the residents were scared to wake me up, and they resuscitated her after the first. I shouldn't have left the ER that night, but she was the only ventilated patient in ER on that night, so went easy on myself...will forever regret it. I would never blame my residents, it was my fault...I was the only consultant present as it was a Friday and the fault was all mine.
The woman's husband is exactly of my age and we developed kind of a friendship, he simply couldn't believe when I broke the news to him, thought I was kidding...a perfectly fine and happy family... completely destroyed..we are in the worst profession possible..we know nothing, yet people's lives depend on us, they trust us completely, they do whatever we tell them to do and after almost 10 months we still know nothing about this ****ing virus.